I have Borderline Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Major Depression, Anxiety and Panic Disorder. I have them but I am not them. I am 56 years young and I have dealt with these all of my life. I have been hospitalized at 16 for 5 months and again for various periods of time during my adult life. Life has been a very big struggle. I have had several therapists and psychiatrists. I am at a great place now. Though all these years of learning about myself and how to handle these mental problems I have become so aware of myself and the world. Oh, I still have the occasional difficulty and have to see my therapist. I still see my psychiatrist every three months for a medicine check. Yes, I will always take some kind of psychiatric drug. I accept that as a part of my life. I am where I am now because of all that I went through. What I want to tell everyone who is in the midst of the struggle is that there is a better life out there. For me once I accepted my mental problems and took the big step to start working to deal with them and learn how to live with them, I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. I was not magically healed - that does not happen. I had a long hard journey to get to the place I am today. I was blessed to find a therapist that fit with me and worked just as hard as I did. I was blessed to find a psychiatrist that worked with me to find the right mix of medications to help me. When I took the step to work hard those two men never gave up on me. Now I am able to function in the world, my family, with my children and extended family, my friends and the people I am around every day. Life is hard, not as hard as it was but I am always learning and growing. I will be the best me that I can be.